| Grandfathers |
[Jul. 8th, 2006|08:33 am] |
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im scared for my grandfather thats why i want to be with him, because theres a chance he may come out of this worse. and i love my grandfather so much, he's the only grandfather i've ever known. and i'm scared of losing him. and its hard for me to say this because i chock up and i feel like i cant breathe. i love him so much. i want him to be okay and i want to be there when he comes out so i can see that he's okay with my own eyes. and i want for him to know that i care so much about him, that im willing to take a small break from my life to be with him. i couldnt live with myself if i wasnt there by him side, praying for everything to go right. i want you to know how much i care about him so that you will understand why i need to be there when he's in the hospital. its important to me. i wish you could come be there by my side so that you can keep me strong, and even now i need you to help me be strong and i know your love will help me be strong. i know that he is most likely going to pass away before i do and thats so scary to me because i dont know how im going to handle it. thats why the time you share with your grandfather means so much to you and the time im there for my grandpa means so much to me. every moment that life passes us by we could easily just lose our grandfathers, and i get so sad and i try not to cry but its impossible, i just feel so young and invisible sometimes i forget how fragile life really is. i really need you by my side on this one. i feel so miserable lately i just want this to be over, and him to be healthy, but i know this isn't another thing i can just bury inside of me. |
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[Jan. 13th, 2006|02:18 pm] |
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When you're out with your friends
In your new Mercedes Benz and you're
On drugs
And you show up late for school cuz
You think your really cool when you're
On drugs
And you put on your headphones
And you step into the zone when you're
On drugs
But the world don't care
If your not there cuz you're
On drugs
Give it to me
We are all on drugs yeah
Never getting enough
We are all on drugs yeah
Give me some of that stuff
And you twitch in your seat cuz
You wanna hit the street when you're
On drugs
And you cause such a fuss cuz
There's no one you can trust when you're
On drugs
And the best of your days
Will all vanish into haze when you're
On drugs
And you wish you could quit cuz
You're really sick of it but you're
On drugs
Give it to me
We are all on drugs yeah
Never getting enough
We are all on drugs yeah
Give me some of that stuff
I want to confiscate your drugs
I don't think I can get enough
Give it to me
We are all on drugs yeah
Never getting enough
We are all on drugs yeah
Give me some of that stuff
We are all on drugs
We are all on drugs
We are all on drugs
We are all on drugs
Weezer- 'We Are All On Drugs"
tape recording my conversations...now thats low |
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[Nov. 6th, 2005|12:59 am] |
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| | Madonna-Hung Up | ] |
I'm caught up.
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| The Struggle for power |
[Oct. 6th, 2005|11:14 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | cranberries- "zombie" | ] |
She has no right to ever imply that I am a sult, or that I’m doing anything I’m not suppose to be doing without cited proof. Who the hell does she think she is? Everyday she seems to be getting worse and worse; more involved, and more of a control freak. Well let me tell you, I am never giving up. I am a fighter; I am a soldier who will die for what she believes in, and there is no one or thing that can make me change how I feel. Due to recent events I am slightly wounded, but I’ve came out stronger than I thought. I’m going to get what I want, and that’s all I have to say. No matter what. I will come out on top and she will be that ant that I crush while I’m walking towards what I need. She is so scared I’ll make a big mistake and throw everything away, but there is no reason for her to even feel that way. She is the one that has ruined some of my best chance of learning. She thinks everyone in brainwashing me when in reality maybe they are but she in one of them too. I can think for myself, and that’s what I’m doing now. Just let me go, and you’ll see that I can do everything for myself. I just want you to leave me alone. Since you’re not capable of doing that I’m going to make it easy for you and go away myself. I promise you I will never be back. I promise you I will never bother you again, and if you blame yourself for losing me, you shouldn’t because this is fate. This is our fate, and fate is never fair. It has taken me a long time to realize that, and maybe it will be the same for you. |
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| hate |
[Sep. 27th, 2005|04:36 pm] |
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do you feel the way you hate, do you hate the way you hate |
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| note to everyones replys to last entry |
[Aug. 29th, 2005|05:56 pm] |
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Everyone i was in kabul for a long time due to my expired passport problem and i will be returning home on tuesday aug 30th of 2005. so i will call and email whomever then... |
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[Aug. 28th, 2005|04:52 pm] |
i got alot of shit going on with me...wheres my shrink!
: ) |
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[May. 20th, 2005|12:18 pm] |
Everyone is invited to me funeral.
To my online buddies, you are more than welcome to come
But if im not online for 3months
i'm no longer living. |
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[May. 19th, 2005|10:29 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | moby | ] |
In another life...
i will be the queen of the people,
i will be the saver of this place;
i will cure the impossible,
i will warm the hearts of the cold,
i will bring love and peace.
I will share my wisdom with the creatures of the land
...and they will listen to me.
They will admire and share my shine
my power and passion.
but in my dreams...i will always be dying.
Death
am i scared of him?
no but i am scared of Him.
he will not judge me only...
but he will question
and what am i to say
what am i to say to our God?
system of a down's new CD is out, go out support the band, its an awesome CD. I hope you all get a chance to listen to it...its more than i would have expected, i can't wait for there other album to come out this year...way to go system. i love you guys. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 17th, 2005|11:32 am] |
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| |  tired | ] |
i wanna apologize for what i said about syid
he's just a divorced retired guy whos probably lonely
but it still doesn't give him right to tell me what to do because he fucked up his life...
but don't worry i'm not going to hold it against you.
i guess that wasn't a apologize, that was more like pity...
uh why do i even bother |
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[May. 7th, 2005|03:52 am] |
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It feels so good to be loved. Once you feel that, or once you remember it...you'll be depressed without it and thats the way it goes. |
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[May. 4th, 2005|02:05 pm] |
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| | crappy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | m. carey- heartbreaker | ] |
Aquarius - Your Love Profile
Your positive traits:
You've got a ton of friends, so you have no problem meeting new people. (i should prob hang o ut with my friends sometime...)
You're great at thinking up new things and actitives to do with your sweetie.(i don't kno about that...)
You tend to let the little things slide in relationships... and focus on the bigger picture.( i do let things slide)
Your negative traits:
In relationships, it tends to be your way or the highway.
You can never open up completely to someone - you have to keep parts of yourself secret.(i've been really good on breaking that)
You're cold and reserved, which leaves your partner feeling unloved.(i'm also working on that)
Your ideal partner:
Flexible, because you're not going to be the one to compromise!
Is smart and quirky with lots of weird interests... including you.
A true indivdualist who doesn't care what anyone thinks
Your dating style:
Stimulating. You prefer dates that explore a shared interest - like a lecture, muesum tour, or concert. ( i do like concerts.)
Your seduction style:
Wacky. Your wild ideas have your lover wondering what's next.
Insatiable - it takes a lot to satisfy your desires.(not really)
Varied. You're eager to try things as soon as you learn about them.
Tips for the future:
Bring a little responsibility to your relationship - like showing up for dates! (thanks for the advice)
Compromise a little. It would kill you to do things your lover's way for once.
Be aware of your parnter's jealousy. Even though you aren't jealous, realize your partner is sometimes. (i can be jealous too...mostly of blondes)
Best place to meet someone online:
Match.com - there's enough singles to find offbeat dates and tons of romantic adventure
Best color to attract mate: Sky blue
Best day for a date: Wednesday (i disagree)
Get your free love profile at Blogthings.
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| Othello Paper at work. |
[Mar. 24th, 2005|07:04 am] |
Jealously and anger are two emotions that have been accuring since the human race exsited. It is not only happening in the human race but in animals too. Othelllo, by William shakespeare deals with the same concepts and themes of jealously that deals with rage, and frusteration too. The tradety of Othello's jealously relates to how we carry on our emotions that reflect our everyday life.
Without the introduction of our charactor Iago the chances of Othello becoming jealous and enraged would be very slim. Othello would have given Desomonda the benifit of the doubt. Iago started the feelings of Othello by says, "Cassio my lord? No, sure, i can't think it; That he would steal away so guilty like; seeing your coming."(3.3.41-43) By saying that ir spearked the begining of the book.
The tragedy of Othello is jealously but Othello is not the only jealous person in this play. Iago is jealous of Othello's high-ranking position. Othello's jealous of Iago's white skin and his insecurities about his black skin makes him easily tricked by Iago. Iago's jealously creates Othello's and he sucucesses in the end by destoring both lovers.
After Iago tells Othello what he thinks is going on between his wife and Cassio, Iago says, "O, Beware, my lord, of jealousy; it is the green-eyed monster..."(3.3.195-196) It leaves Othello at unease once he hears what Iago thinks is happening. Othello starts to let the green-eyed monster, which is symbolizes for jealousy take over his mind, body, and common sence.
While Othello is pandering weather what Iago is telling him is true. He's forced to go to Iago and ask him for proff. Iago plants the hankercheif in Cassio's possision. Othello gets to see Cassio talking about his wife and laughing and having the hankercheif in his hand. Thats all the proff Othello needed to know his wide truely wasn't honest or worthy.
Othello says to Iago, "O curse of marriage, that we can call these delicate creatures ours, and not their appetites!" (www.litquotes.com, 5.15.05) Othello is saying that he doesn't feel loved at all he's feeling used. Othello is feeling very jealous, used, hurt, angry, and lied to. When he talks to Desomona he talks in circles. When Othello says, "It is the cause. It is the cause, my coul' let me not name it to you...," to Desomona, she doesn't know what he's talking about or what's going on which makes her another victum of Iago's jealously. Othello conculds at the end, if he can't have desomonia certainly no other man will. He plans to kill her with position which Iago says that she should die slowly by Othello's grip, and Othello goes along what Iago said.
In the concultion of OThello is that everyone pays just because of one person's jealousy. In this case it was IAgo's jealousy who destoried his life, Othello's, Desomonda's, Cassio's, his wife's, and one other charactor.
Everyday life is not far off from this play. Everyday man gets jealous from man thinking women is chaeting on them or the women thinks that the man is cheating on her. Most cases don't become as extreme as Othello where everyone dies but in some cases they do. Everyday someone will commit the sin od killing for reasons of jealousy. Prehaps they wish they were like them (like Iago, or they want to be the best, or even are selfish and want to make sure that only the person can be theirs (like Othello did to Desomonida). Most od the jealousy are based on true charings and lies, only a small percentage end up in a case like Desomonda's.
The resoultion of the play Othello, by William Shakespeare relates to jealousy in this centry and every other, because jeaously consists of the same kind of events that end up happening in every case. It starts with being hurt and confused and ends badly with dismissals and destruction. Othello is based on those feelings which conculde why Othello relates to how we carry on our acts of jealousy like him today. |
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